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Life

Today marks the 30th anniversary of two legendary geek milestones:

  1. Namco released the first build of Pac-Man to arcades throughout the United States.
  2. Lucasfilm and 20th Century Fox released The Empire Strikes Back, which is the crown jewel of the entire Star Wars universe.

These are two events that, for better or for worse, helped shape my childhood and played a significant role in the adult I would become.

When I was a child, Pac-Man was one of the first games to really capture my attention.  It was everywhere, and I thought I was pretty good at it.  Sometime in 1986 or 1987, before I’d ever touched an NES, I started to learn some of the ghosts’ patterns and personalities.  I found ways to traverse each map to ensure that I’d eat four ghosts for every power pellet, eat every fruit that came onto the map, and keep myself in the high score slot on the machine at our local laundromat.

If you haven’t played the latest Google doodle, head over to Google.com and click on the “Insert Coin” button.

A few years later, I would be introduced to the Star Wars saga.  This was when they were still referred to as “Star Wars”, “Empire”, and “Jedi”. There was none of this “Episode IV” or “A New Hope” nonsense.  Han shot first. Lucas hadn’t yet gone back to revise (and, in some ways, destroy) his original masterpiece.  Master Yoda taught us to “do, or do not”, because “there is no try”. Han Solo taught us that the most badass response possible to “I love you” is “I know”. We learned what really happened to Anakin Skywalker.

Tonight, I’ll watch The Empire Strikes Back on DVD, despite the revisionist changes that George Lucas has made, and I’ll be drooling over one of those Ms. Pac-Man/Galaga cabinets released a few years ago.

I have a confession to make: I’m starting to hate my CD and DVD collections.

Don’t get me wrong.  I absolutely love to collect and listen to music.  I have a bad habit of going all-in when I discover a new band or artist, quickly collecting all of their albums and spending the next weeks or months on a bit of a musical binge.

The problem? I’ve amassed a sizable collection of shiny plastic discs.  By my estimate, it’s roughly 500 albums from just over 200 different bands or artists.  My wife has a smaller collection, roughly 100 discs, that adds a good chunk to the problem.

We have a similarly frustrating DVD collection, hovering somewhere around 300 discs, if you exclude our TV sets (which would easily double our DVD count to around 600 discs).  The TV sets don’t cause much trouble, due to their high density (calculated by number of  discs per unit of volume), but they add their own weight to the situation.

That adds up to around 1,200 discs to store.  That’s not much, compared to some collections, but it’s enough for us that it’s a problem.  This has been easily avoidable for a while: put ‘em in boxes, stack ‘em in the spare room. Out of sight, out of mind. Right?

We can thin out some of our collection (Why do I have an Eminem CD? Do we really need two copies of Tori Amos’ “Boys for Pele”?), but that gets us down to around 1,000 discs in a best-case scenario.

With our young’n on the way (my mother-in-law called him “Spock” today, which was pretty awesome), the spare room is no longer a room to spare.  We now have to find a way to solve this.

I’ve cooked up a few options:

  1. Install custom shelving to house the entire collection. This isn’t unreasonable, but we don’t have an obvious place for such an installation.  Furthermore, we’d simultaneously be creating a serious climbing or tipping hazard within 18 to 24 months.
  2. Rip the entire collection, then sell it. This is tempting, but I have some ethical objection to doing it. I also have quite an attachment to these stupid, shiny discs. I just can’t bring myself to part with the vast majority of them.  That said, I’ll be re-ripping the entire CD collection to Apple Lossless soon.  The DVD collection will probably not be ripped to a drive within the foreseeable future, so this is only a partial solution.
  3. Get rid of the bulky cases, then store everything in a set of CD or DVD binders. This is actually quite tempting, and the most probable solution.  The only catch is that I will want everything sorted in a specific way (alphabetical by artist, then chronologically) and I have nightmares about buying any new album that fits somewhere between Aphex Twin and Widespread Panic.  Shifting an entire collection three slots to the right could be incredibly difficult.
  4. Forget the binders. Use disc sleeves and a sturdy box or cabinet. This easily solves the problem of keeping things sorted how I like them, but maintains part of the storage problem.  I could use a small dresser (via craigslist?) to house all of the sleeves in the corner of the family room or under the window in the master bedroom.  But what about multi-disc albums?
  5. Leave it all in the boxes and find a new place to store them. We have some closet space, and limited attic storage, but this only delays the inevitable.

None of these are particularly groundbreaking, but I’m leaning toward options 3 and 4.  Case Logic has some great products for this sort of thing (check out their 320-disc CD binder, 200-disc DVD binder, and storage sleeves) at relatively affordable prices, so that helps.

I know that I’m not the only one out there to have tackled this, so I’m asking for your help: What do you do with your collection of plastic discs? What do you like or dislike about your current storage and sorting situation?

Yesterday, in reading John Gruber’s excellent iPad review, I came across this photo:

"I should have bought two."

It took a minute, but this photo blew my mind.  Here’s why.

When I was his age, circa 1988, I was just learning to use a computer.  It was an IBM XT, running at 6 MHz, with a 10 MB hard drive and an amber monochrome monitor.  I could never have dreamed of filling the 10 MB hard drive, despite my growing collection of installed games.  It ran MS-DOS 3.0 in an 80-column ASCII terminal.  I played the crap out of a game called Rogue.

To put that into some temporal context, I hadn’t yet been introduced to the original Nintendo Entertainment System.  That happened some time in the spring of 1989.  The now-legendary multicart version of Super Mario Bros. and Duck Hunt wasn’t introduced until November 1988.  Windows ’95 wouldn’t be released for another 7 years.  America On-Line didn’t exist.

At that time, as a child, my imagination seemed to know no bounds — partially out of necessity, but also out of stupefied wonder.  I built fantastical worlds around simple graphical presentations.  The caves and passageways I explored in Rogue were full of hulking monsters and magical creatures.  I was somewhat afraid of the dark, for fear that I would be eaten by a grue.  This giant beige box, in all of its magic and magnificence, held the key to some of my most cherished memories.

(I knew, even then, that I would “program computers” when I grew up.)

There are dozens of other examples, I’m sure, but the basic idea is this: Even with its limited technical capabilities, that computer opened the door to a world of wonder and amazement that I otherwise might not have known.

I still remember the first time I saw an NES in action.  I stood there, with my jaw slightly agape, as my mind was boggled by the tiny box that found its home on our neighbor’s console TV.  Before that day, I probably would have never created a world where a plumber and his brother throw fireballs at turtles and goombas to rescue an unknown princess from a giant turtle-dragon.

Of course, I also wouldn’t have imagined that I’d conquer seven other castles before finding the one that held the Princess.  Also, what the hell is a goomba, anyway?  I digress.

As technology advanced, the necessity of my imagination seemed to diminish, but I only found myself using it more and more.  Brighter worlds, more vivid and more detailed, came to life through other magical boxes (the SNES, Genesis, et al.), but that only fed my brain what it needed to create bigger, better, more adventurous worlds.  Gone were the days of exploring the caves in a nearby mountain to find a magical sword and slay the Dragon King.  Instead, I was traveling to a far away kingdom to destroy a new and terrible army of bad guys.

Each time I was introduced to new technology, it was like I got a +1 to Imagination.

That imagination, and our fascination with it, are what lead to new and exciting achievements in technology and engineering.  If you don’t believe me, just look at what Star Trek has done for modern technology.

To you and me, the iPhone and iPad are significant technical achievements, far surpassing the tools that we used as children.  My sister-in-law, now a college freshman, probably doesn’t remember when high-speed internet wasn’t common.  On the other hand, I fondly remember dialing in to local bulletin board systems with my modest 1200 baud (or 2.4 Kbit/s) modem.  Kids these days have probably never seen a printed encyclopedia.  Most of them have never used a floppy disk.

Today’s very young people are growing up in a world where things like the iPad are commonplace.  They don’t have to imagine what it would be like to have a computer in their pocket, because they already have one.  When I was his age, I could barely imagine what it would be like to have a computer on every desk.

I’ve said for years that I have a tremendous belief in the power of young people to change the world for the better.  This photograph, to me, sort of embodies that entire idea.  His generation may well be the one to find a cure for cancer, or AIDS, but they may also build an outpost on Mars or send research satellites to the Andromeda Galaxy.

When I was young, my imagination felt limitless.  My grandfather told me many times that it far exceeded his own as a child.  He grew up in a time when there was no TV; I grew up in a time when you could easily have a TV in every room.  I grew up in a time when cameras used film and the internet was a still only military network; my kid is going to be born into a world where I can send a picture to everyone I know, from my phone and across the internet, within moments of his (or her) birth.

So, just as I dreamed of worlds and gadgets that my parents could not have ever imagined, and my parents did the same to theirs, I suspect that the next generation of young people will do the same to me.  I tend to have pretty vivid visions of the possibilities of tomorrow, but I know that my kid will blow those away.

That is what blows my mind.

On March 8, 1994 — that’s sixteen years ago today — Trent Reznor unleashed The Downward Spiral, which would help me define and focus on so much of the unbridled emotions I dealt with as I stumbled through high school and found my way through college.

When I came around to this album in the fall of 1996, it forced a painful, unignorable light onto some of the things I had been ignoring until that point. My mother had disowned me four years earlier, shortly after the death of my father, and I had been living with my paternal grandparents since then. I had a good life, and was given anything I could’ve ever needed, but I was still very, very angry at my mother for what she had done and what she had become.

Even at the young age of fourteen, I found the voice of my anger in the opening lines of “Mr. Self Destruct” (I am the voice in side your head, and I control you.), my mantra in “Piggy” (Nothing can stop me now.), a painful realization of what my mother had become in “Heresy” ([She] flexed [her] muscles to keep [her] flock of sheep in line.), and quiet solace in the instrumental hauntings of “A Warm Place”.

I got a lot out of this album, and it guided me through a lot of dark places. Years later, I’d find out that I had gotten out of it exactly what Trent tried to put into it, albeit in quite a different context:

Thematically, I wanted to explore the idea of somebody who systematically throws or uncovers every layer of what he’s surrounded with, comfort-wise, from personal relationships to religion to questioning the whole situation.

Over the years, I’d find new meanings in old songs, but they were always more cathartic and productive than hateful or destructive. For me, this ride was most certainly on a spiral, but it wasn’t downward. It would take me nearly a decade to fully realize what this album had put into motion (culminating, perhaps, in the title track of Tool’s Lateralus), but it gave me the focus and the resolve to cut toxic relationships from my life.

There are days when this album is difficult to listen to, because it captures a snapshot of where I was, but it also serves to remind me of how far I’ve come. This album was the first piece of a map out of the dark place that my relationship with my mother had become. Over the last several years, though, this album has become an old friend. It’s one of those albums that just feel like home to me. It helps keep me focused when I’m distracted, find balance when I’m off-kilter, and find a quiet calmness when things seem to be hopelessly upended.

So, sixteen years after it was first unleashed, I will spend part of tonight with my DVD-Audio re-release of The Downward Spiral, my favorite pair of headphones, and a realization of just how far I’ve come.

Nothing can stop me now.

Our Pale Blue Dot

March 4, 2010

On September 6, 1977, NASA launched its Voyager 1 spacecraft.  In 1990, after passing the orbits of Pluto and Neptune, NASA used their on-board cameras to look back toward Earth and snap a photograph.

This is what they received:

The bands of light seen here are due to sunlight being scattered by the camera’s optics, but look closely at the right-most band of light.  See that tiny blue dot?

That’s us.

Carl Sagan:

Look again at that dot. That’s here, that’s home, that’s us. On it everyone you love, everyone you know, everyone you ever heard of, every human being who ever was, lived out their lives. The aggregate of our joy and suffering, thousands of confident religions, ideologies, and economic doctrines, every hunter and forager, every hero and coward, every creator and destroyer of civilization, every king and peasant, every young couple in love, every mother and father, hopeful child, inventor and explorer, every teacher of morals, every corrupt politician, every “superstar,” every “supreme leader,” every saint and sinner in the history of our species lived there – on a mote of dust suspended in a sunbeam.

The Earth is a very small stage in a vast cosmic arena. Think of the rivers of blood spilled by all those generals and emperors so that, in glory and triumph, they could become the momentary masters of a fraction of a dot. Think of the endless cruelties visited by the inhabitants of one corner of this pixel on the scarcely distinguishable inhabitants of some other corner, how frequent their misunderstandings, how eager they are to kill one another, how fervent their hatreds.

Our posturings, our imagined self-importance, the delusion that we have some privileged position in the Universe, are challenged by this point of pale light. Our planet is a lonely speck in the great enveloping cosmic dark. In our obscurity, in all this vastness, there is no hint that help will come from elsewhere to save us from ourselves.

The Earth is the only world known so far to harbor life. There is nowhere else, at least in the near future, to which our species could migrate. Visit, yes. Settle, not yet. Like it or not, for the moment the Earth is where we make our stand.

It has been said that astronomy is a humbling and character-building experience. There is perhaps no better demonstration of the folly of human conceits than this distant image of our tiny world. To me, it underscores our responsibility to deal more kindly with one another, and to preserve and cherish the pale blue dot, the only home we’ve ever known.

On March 27th, 2010, at 8:30 PM CDT, I’ll be participating in Earth Hour 2010My wife and I will invite a few friends over, turn off the non-essential electronics in our home, light a few candles, and probably play a game or two of Catan.  What will you do?

For a glimpse at some of the world’s most famous landmarks “going dark” during last year’s event, check out this collection of photographs from The Big Picture.

The goal of this event is to raise awareness for our role is perceived as man-made global warming, but it’s also an excuse to have some close friends over for an evening of fellowship.

The Boy Scouts of America was officially founded on February 8, 1910. A century later, it has seen more than a hundred million members join its ranks and has awarded the rank of Eagle Scout to nearly two million young men.

I am an Eagle Scout.  My father didn’t earn his Eagle, but his father and three brothers did.  Three of my cousins are Eagle Scouts.  My wife’s father, brother, and great uncle are all Eagle Scouts.  Suffice it to say that I am enthusiastically supportive of the program, even if I sometimes find myself at odds with the policies and decisions of the national committee.

I make no qualms about my opposition to the discriminatory policies held by the BSA against atheists and homosexuals.  However, I have long held the belief that, ultimately, the positions and the policies of the national committee affect the organization on a macro level.  The problems seen on that scale are quite marginalized on a micro scale (ie. individual councils or units).

Instead, I participate in Scouting — despite my opposition to specific policies — because I still feel that the program is important and that it makes a difference.  I had been drafting an essay for this site, largely touching on this topic, and whether Scouting was relevant in today’s society, but GeekDad beat me to it.

This morning, in a similarly-titled essay, Dave Banks hit the nail on the head:

At the 2000 Democratic National Convention, hundreds of delegates booed a group of Boy Scouts as they led the convention in the Pledge of Allegiance. While this show of disapproval must have been heart-felt, it was misguided. The frustration that some have with the Boy Scouts is understandable, but a group of 14 and 16 year old boys doesn’t dictate organizational policy. The argument the delegates had was with the BSA administration.

This is the heart of the argument about Scouting’s relevancy. While the Scouting program provides plenty of opportunity to boys to develop important and unique skills, hone leadership traits that will pay off outside scouting and help boys to live up to their potential, most of the complaints people lodge against Scouting’s relevancy are tied to decisions that the BSA’s adult leadership makes. And so we’re faced with a decision: should we withhold the potentially outstanding experience of Boy Scouts from our sons because of the unbending rules of the organization’s administration?

To make matters more complicated, on the local level, there is often a flexible interpretation of the laws. Homosexual parents and scouts serve Boy Scouts without fear of reprisal (even in America’s Bible belt), and atheists simply keep their mouths shut during the scout pledge to God and claims of reverence. Like many issues, at the local level, we’re all just people and local administration understands that. At its core, Scouting is a program they believe in and want to share with others, no matter who they are or what they believe. And ultimately, the biggest knocks to Scouting’s relevancy don’t make much sense. As a parent, I wouldn’t expect a heterosexual Catholic leader to proselytize to my son about his religion or his sexuality, any more than I’d think a homosexual atheist would be discussing those subjects with my kids.

This is quite representative of what I personally see in most criticisms of Scouting.  The topics of atheists and homosexuals in Scouting have served as a lightning rod, but I think that they get a largely disproportionate amount of attention from the media and the public.

These critics generally don’t loathe that we raise young men and women to be thoughtful, meticulous leaders.  They don’t sneer at the millions of hours of community service rendered each year by local units.  They don’t complain when we donate warm clothes to homeless shelters, serve dinner at a community kitchen, or team up with Habitat for Humanity to literally put a roof over someone’s head.

Ultimately, however, the collection of those experiences are what define Scouting, they’re what define a Scout’s experience, and they’re what make Scouting great.

I wouldn’t trade my knowledge or experiences from Scouting for anything.  These experiences have given me a way to relate to my father (who died when I was only 7), helped me learn to communicate with my grandfather (who was a very stubborn old man), taught me things that I probably would not have learned on my own, and has shown me things — in nature and in myself — that I could’ve never dreamed of finding on my own.

When the day comes, I hope that I have a son with whom to share a similar experience.  I don’t think that a better case for relevancy can be made.

To make matters more complicated, on the local level, there is often a flexible interpretation of the laws. Homosexual parents and scouts serve Boy Scouts without fear of reprisal (even in America’s Bible belt), and atheists simply keep their mouths shut during the scout pledge to God and claims of reverence. Like many issues, at the local level, we’re all just people and local administration understands that. At its core, Scouting is a program they believe in and want to share with others, no matter who they are or what they believe. And ultimately, the biggest knocks to Scouting’s relevancy don’t make much sense. As a parent, I wouldn’t expect a heterosexual Catholic leader to proselytize to my son about his religion or his sexuality, any more than I’d think a homosexual atheist would be discussing those subjects with my kids.